I went to a new pain management doctor yesterday and she was so mean, so offensive I just couldn't believe it. She treated me like I was a drug addict and was just there trying to get pills. I swear in all my years I have never been treated like that by a doctor.
Why am I having such a hard time with doctors? What is going on? I mean thank goodness I found a great rheumy who is going to help me. But I swear I have been through more doctors not listening to me, judging me, pushing me aside telling me nothing is wrong and questioning my integrity.....it's just exhausting. I'm a good person and I don't deserve this. I'm a mother of five children and I'm just trying to get by, by the skin of my teeth these days. It's been so hard. I can't afford emergency room visits for pain and these pain doctors treat me like I'm a druggie trying to get pills when I have a rheumatologist who has all but diagnosed me with lupus or fibromyalgia, obviously something is going on. If she was questioning it why didn't she talk to him? I just don't get it. She even said to me, "what do you want from me, what do you want me to give you?".........well how in the heck am I supposed to know????? You're the doctor, you figure it out!!!!! WTH? I feel like she was trying to rope me in and see what I would say to see if I was trying to get pills or something. I just told her I don't know, I just need help. I mean seriously, what kind of line of questioning is that? Her attitude was just atrocious.
I'm just so mad and so sad to be treated this way. My heart is hurt. In the end she told me she would give me a Buprenorphine patch because there's less chance of abuse with that. Omg I couldn't believe she said that. It hurt so bad. I don't even know if I should use it. I called my rheumy and primary care doc to get their opinions before I put it on. I know this much, I'm NEVER going back to her.
Sorry to rant and be negative. I'm really sorry. I'm just so hurt. :(