Today has been really rough on me, I woke up with a stomach ache out of this world. Ive been crying all day just thinking about all that i have been through and i still have to have another surgery. I keep telling myself to be strong and fight through it but there are so many days i want to give up. I keep praying that things will get better and i will get through this. I look at the scars on my body and they remind me of the pain. I keep asking myself, "why me...what did i do to deserve this"
Oh honey, I am so sorry that you are feeling this way! I completely understand the "why me" feeling all to well. I will keep you in my prayers, and I pray that you feel some relief today! Some days prayer is the only thing that gets me through the day.... Please know that you are not alone.
Thank you jojo. I did a lot of praying today.
I hate to see that you are having such a rough day. I remember asking, "why me?" many times and had to finally conclude that there was a reason for everything. I know that's very cliche and not much help but it's what got me through it. My life completely changed and I had to find a way to live in it and it was HARD! I still have days where I want to go back before all this mess started up but it's just a thought and I know there is no going back, I must move forward. It may not be what I wanted for myself but it is a part of me I have to learn to live with. I have come to a sort of solace in that I've lost some friends and I don't see my family much. I understand that they don't get it except for what l can tell them and I'm too tired to keep repeating myself anymore. I'm tired of trying to push myself too hard just to appease them. I have to take care of me. In the end there's just me living with this and I've got to try and do as much as I can to make me better. I hope you understand how important it is to take care of 'you'. Be good to yourself, as best you can. You are still important, loved, and wanted. Sending prayers of comfort to you and may you have better days in the future.
aw girl, we all have these kinds of days and moments. Or at least I know I have them quite often. What mostly gets me through these "why me" times is thinking if it were one of my sisters who were diagnosed with Lupus, and I know for a fact that odds are they wouldn't be able to handle it as "well" as I do. and I let that be my reasoning. You can do it. And you have your beautiful son, let him be your motivation to get through these tough times! I truly hope you day turns around for the better, because to be honest, I find the emotional portion of this disease to be more of a burden than the physical aspect at times...hope you feel better!
I will pray for you. I feel so hurt for you.
I think we all understand the "why me". I am having one of those day too. Today we will cry and feel sorry for are self. Then tomorrow we will pull our self's up and find something to be thankful for.
Me too Just finished a nasty virus and was really low yesterday I watch people heading out with boats, jet skis, to pools and all places outdoors and think why me! I’m such an outdoor person!
It is mostly inconsequential, but I completely understand. I thought I was over all that "what did I ever do...stuff". It creeps back in every now and then, though. The truth is that you didn't do anything to deserve the hand you've been dealt. (My mom tells me that all the time.) Hang in there!
Prayers and hugs for you!
Thank you, same to you sweetie.
Prayers and hugs for you!
Gentle hugs for you.
Hello lupussuperwoman. :-)
I can totally empathize with you on this.
I want you to know that you aren't alone. Everyone goes thru some sort of pain in life. Everyone suffers.
But after the rain comes the sun and rainbow. These hard times do not last. Please keep pushing forward. You have control of this situation, the situation does not have contro lof you.
Hope that helps! :-)
Hope you are doing better I see the picture of you and your little boy as a mom I know he is also what gives you the strenght to hold on and keep moving strong so don’t let go of that. Have faith in God and yourself you will get thru this lot’s of hugs and will pray for your recovery
Thank you Mary, you are right,my son does keep me from giving up. I live for him. I keep telling myself this will pass and I will get through this. Thank you so much for the support. Many blessings and luv to you.