just frustarted

I have been looking for month and month to find some kind of studdy for lupus that I can be a part of.... and absolutly freaking nothing! Nothing anywere close to MS at all. The closest is in florida... how the hell am I suppost to be able to travle that far if I can barly pay for my meds? Everyone is advertising that they want to find a cure for Lupus... well shit how are u going to do that if you are turning away ppl that suffer from lupus are aer WILLING to do what ever it takes to help. AHHHHHH It makes me soooooo mad.